Im 13 and i feel depressed, i cant afford medication or a psychiatrist?

I am 13 and for about 4 or 5 months i fallen into some sort of depression. and i cant afford medication or a psychiatrist. I am very religious and i often think about the end of the world or the dark coldness of space. Even when i listing to something uplifting i feel good for about 5 minutes. I feel like life is nothing. that humanity is just killing the balance. I think i might be going crazy. I am a smart kid, As and Bs i have a good life. but don'tnt want to be locked up in the crazy house. I feel like i have the worst form of depressionon there is. I cant sleep at night or enjoy the things i used to love. I have fears of falling short of god and even when i know that jesus loves me. i feel like the devil is trying to kill me. I cant even be in a dark area or be by myself. please help me. I think i may be havinanotherer panic Attack. please help